Friday, July 17, 2009
Thursday, May 21, 2009
|here's how I feel about religion. okay so if you ask some people "why are your beliefs/ religion this?" they will reply with the simple fact that it's what their parents believed and so that's what they do. to me this is the wrong way to go about finding what makes you choose the path for your life. to me a religion should be based on what you hold to be true to you and not what those who raised held to be their truth. it should be something you love and not a chore thrust upon you. I guess you could say I believe in induviduality...|
Monday, June 16, 2008
Any who I'm getting a bit off topic. What the headline refers to is the curious recommendations given to me by netflix and later Hollywood video.
I watch my share of DVDs and online movies/shows from netflix. I used to be on the 4 DVDs at a time plan but later scaled down to 2 at a time when i realized i wasn't watching them very quickly. At work I'm able to watch the instant viewing offerings. They help make a slow night go by a bit faster. In fact I'm watching one in the background while typing up this post. I love netflix's recommendations! I watch a lot of various genres and languages of films. I never thought anything would be able to get my movie watching history into some sort of order and organization so that it would be able to give me very accurate recommendations for the most part. I'd say netflix's recommendations tend to swing somewhere in the ballpark of 90% win. Netflix knows I love french films starring Audrey tatou and old jimmy Stewart & Doris day films.
Lately as I've browsed through the recommendations netflix gives me I've noticed that more and more of them fall under the gay & lesbian category. Now looking through the recommendations in that category I'm noticing the ones recommended to me all have men on the cover and deal with the stories of coming out, love, and other topics all relating to gay men. At first I was all wtf? Who does netflix think I am? I'm a straight woman and it keeps serving up stores about living life as a gay man in today's world. Don't get me wrong netflix. I'm not homophobic and I do love men but I am not a man. Also I'm pretty sure you are right in saying that I would like some of these films/shows.
Yesterday night I went to Hollywood video down the street from my house. They have this new zoltar psychic gimmick thing that is supposed to recommend you a list of movies that you will enjoy based on your rental history. Also if you do it you get a neat coupon, mine was rent one get one free. For the curious I rented the planet (for my dad), the bucket list (on blu-ray for myself), and lars and the real girl (for me and my sis Sam). Any who before I rented anything I got the recommendations print out. I wish I would've saved it to post here. It had recommended to me shows such as queer as folk among others.
After the Hollywood video thing I've decided I'm going to accept being a gay man trapped in a straight woman's body. I love men, musicals, documentaries about the coming out experience, and have great taste. I will watch foreign films that tend to be more explicit in regards to many things including the areas of sex. I will sing about angry inches and laugh/relate to Margaret cho jokes on a personal level. I will continue to watch LOGO especially when it has Margaret cho or the scissor sisters on. I will continue to love every episode of "can't get a date" whether gay/straight and I will continue to believe that all people deserve the same rights. I will fight stereotypes, homophobes, and conservatives who believe that the LGBT community shouldn't exsist or shouldn't have equal rights.
I guess what I'm trying to say is...
I'm not afraid to say i'm a gay man trapped in a straight woman's body. Yeah I've just come out of the GMTIASW'sB closet. I guess me and netflix are gonna go on a trip to California and get our gay marriage on. Wait... is netflix even a dude?
p.s. if you have netflix check out coming out stories in the instant viewing section. good stuff. some of it is very cry worthy.
UPDATE: After watching the documentary "super high me" I've also noticed that netflix also thinks that i'm a stoner. It says I will give high (heh, high) marks to shows like weeds and super high me (which I did for super high me). I don't know what it is about me but I get the whole "stoner" thing from people in real life too. I've never smoked anything let alone pot in my life but I get asked by people every so often if I do get high. People that know me think it's hilarious that someone would even ask that about me. So yeah if you were gonna ask the answer is: no I don't, nor have I ever, get high and I can't reccomend you to a good dealer so don't ask.
UPDATE: 7/17/09 Just fixed some formatting issues on this post. Never noticed the change in fonts sizes til' I went to post a new blog and checked out how it looked.
Monday, April 28, 2008
now that you do
and i know how you feel
i wish i could just dissapear
like a dream and you'd forget about me
forget i exsisted
forget i made any impact on your life
i will forget you
to remember you would leave a never healing scar
i can't bear that cross
forget the feelings
forget the fears, tears, and all of that
just go your way and i'll go mine
never let our paths cross
eternal sunshine in our spotless minds
Monday, April 21, 2008
Friday, January 18, 2008
Okay so I'm checking my emails, which i'll admit i'm a couple of days behind on, and i see a forward from someone. First off forwards are okay if they are entertaining but if they're spam, religious, upsetting, or just poorly written me no likey. comprende? Anyways the forward I was about to read fell under the category of religion and upsetting but I didn't know that before I opened it had I of known I definetly would've deleted it. So not knowing what was ahead I opened it and after scrolling past all the numerous email address of the readers and senders before me I began to read said forward. It started off talking about god and jesus and how you shouldn't take their name in vain and stuff. Then it goes on to give examples which i'll paraphrase below.
"john lennon in a magazine interview said the beatles were bigger than jesus... a month later he was murdered"
"billy grahm paid a visit to marilyn monroe in her apartment to tell her about jesus. she told him i don't need your jesus.. a week later she was found dead in her apartment"
There was one about this reporter who said something about god and the next day she was burned beyond recognition in her automobile. There was another one about a girl who was going somewhere with her car load full of friends who either were drunk/had been drinking when her mom told her something along the lines of may god go with you and protect you to which the daughter replied "not unless god sits in the trunk because there's no room for him" or something like that and the car later got in a car wreck. the car was destroyed beyond recognition except the trunk that was in perfect condition. the cops said it was impossible for the trunk to be unharmed when the car had been destroyed so badly and when they opened the trunk there was egg which were in perfect, uncracked condition. The last one I read was about an entertainer from a different country who was bi-sexual and of course said something that "offended" god/jesus. It went on to tell that sometime after he said that he died horribly from AIDS. There were more but I was so disgusted and sick to my stomach I couldn't go on.
How could someone take the time to write up a forward that takes the tragic ending of each persons current life and turn it into a twisted bible lesson? To me this is the kind of thing that adults tell children to brainwash them into believing the person whom is supposed to be their lord/savior is a "boogie man" of sorts to fear for the punishment will result in an untimely realease from this life. You see this is the problem I have with people who preach their faiths upon others. Using fear tactics, especially ones that turn the dearly departed into evil people who got what was coming to them, is just... just... horrible and in this case disgusting. I hate that there's some who will say you can't love who you want because their version of jesus will disaprove and send you to a place of eternal pain and suffering. I hate that people will pull from the bible only the parts that pertain to the hatred of things unconventional/different/liberal or what have you and deny the parts that say jesus was a cool dude who loved everyone and if you do something that's wrong/sinfull you can just say my jesus do you forgive me he'd just be all "of course i forgive you cause i love you. if i didn't love you i wouldn't of died for your sins". you know he's supposed to be like that parent that tells you to be honest with them and they won't be mad and then when you are honest about what happened just want to make sure you're okay.
who knows though maybe i'm wrong. maybe i'm just an ignorant little buddhist who doesn't know a jesus from a jesus (pronounced hey-seuss) or maybe people are just forgetting what religions are for these days. they're not to scare kids into behaving. they're to give your life a kind of purpose or roadmap to help you get to where you're going... well at least that's what i think.